Some readers have noticed it has been quite some time since my last post, and since the website was last updated. While I’d like to say I was away on some exotic photo shoot or relaxing at an art retreat, the truth is I have been struggling with a severe bout of depression.
When my grandfather passed away a little over 2 years ago, I was able to repress the grief for some time, but then finally the realization came– he is gone.
As a small child, I sat on his lap during church services, drawing on the church bulletin. He is one of the biggest reasons I eventually chose to study and create art, because those early memories are among the best I have. Since his passing, most attempts to paint or draw have only reminded me of how much I miss him. I was on the brink of throwing in the towel, tossing out the art supplies, burning whatever paintings remain, and closing the website, not because I do not want to continue this line of work, but simply because at times it just felt like too much to take on in the midst of depression.
However, my supporters, friends, and clients have been determined to drag me out of my mental muck, and for that I am thankful. From the friend who reminded me that the portrait of his dog still means so much to him even after more than a decade, to the stranger who ordered some of my ornaments on Zazzle knowing her loved ones will have and cherish them even after she is gone (hopefully many, many years from now), to the customers who ordered lucky clovers to give a boost to their own friends– all of you have helped me to realize… it is not really about me. It is about leaving the world in better condition than it was in when I arrived, and how my work makes others think and feel. In other words… It is about all of you!
So for now, I am putting away my self-pity to make room for more new art & photography, more new additions to the Zazzle store, more auction listings, more 4 leaf clovers, and eventually more “Nonprofit of the Month” posts. And, the main website should be updated soon, so be sure to check out http://soulbearing.com for the latest art & photography releases and lucky clovers, and for links to order prints of my work from Zazzle.
And, because all of you allow and encourage me to keep doing what I do, you have my eternal gratitude.